Can I tell you something?
….I’ gonna tell you anyway.
You are 100% lovable. How do I know? Your lovability is based on someone else’s ability to LOVE, not on you. There isn’t a damn thing you can do to be more lovable that you already are, in this moment.
Think about it - say your best friend loves the shit out of you, obvi, you are besties, but her husband doesn’t love you. That has ZERO to do with you being lovable & everything to do with their capacity to love you. His lack of love for you is not a reflection of you. You are 100% lovable.
If you aren’t feeling the love for yourself…that is a choice you are making. It is NOT because you aren’t lovable. It is based on YOUR capacity & willingness to love yourself without any strings attached.
And how you treat yourself is a mirror image of how you think about yourself.
But here’s the kick in the nuts, our brains LOVE LOVE LOVE to find all the dirt on us & judge like it is their job…I mean, it is sorta conditioned that way, so I guess you could say it is like your brain is currently the VP of the “You Aren’t Enough” Department.
BUT here is the amazing thing….you get to step in & train your brain for a new position, The CEO of the “Loving Yourself On Purpose” Department. It is a hands on role & requires daily attention, some days more than others, but I hear the benefits of being the CEO of this particular department are...well, mind-blowing.
First place to start….
Awareness.
What are the mean things your brain tries to tell you about yourself? You will think they are FACTS. These are things you have probably thought for SO long that you BELIEVE them with every bone in your body but now is your chance to question that….
What are some ways those thoughts are NOT true? Your brain will WANT to find evidence for how it IS true but challenge it, with love. Get curious.
And you might just slowly start to recognize that there is more to you to love than you were able to acknowledge before.
Your spouse is NOT your golden ticket to happiness...
Meet the younger, less “aware” versions of us…
Veruca Salt (aka: the emotional child).
The people pleaser.
Guess who WAS who?!
I thought he had my golden ticket to happiness.
And at first, he genuinely wanted to do whatever it took to get me that ticket. He thought his main goal in life was to make me happy.
But EVERY TIME I relied on him to do something to make me happy…it was short lived.
I was never satisfied ENOUGH.
I expected more.
And if things didn’t go my way, I’d get all angry like Vercua. “I want it now!” (Hello unrealistic expectations.)
He kept saying yes, even when, deep down, it was NOT a genuine YES anymore.
Little by little without him realizing it, he was building up & holding in resentment for me in a way that led to him just being angry. A lot.
I thought, if I can change HIM, this can work. So I tried to control his behavior. I wanted him to be less angry. It was obviously “ruining” our relationship. (FYI folks, you can not, I repeat, can not change other people.)
We weren’t really aware that this is how we were showing up in our relationship.
We both blamed each other.
But we also didn’t REALLY talk about it.
If we did argue, it was a shit ton of blaming & yelling, with very little resolution.
Our favorite activity as a couple was to sweep problems under the rug.
It was a mountain of a fucking rug.
We were both miserable & neither one of us realized WE were both the problem.
He couldn’t figure out how to make me happy + he had anger issues.
And I never took responsibility for how I felt.
So what changed?
He realized he was done compromising what he wanted, ALL OF THE TIME, in order to try to make me happy.
And I started taking responsibility for my own damn emotions.
Then there was less tension. Less anger. Not perfect, but WAY better.
And from that place, we were able to be reasonable human beings & talk.
We both realized he wasn’t my golden ticket.
I had it all along.
And as much as I resented him for it at first, he had to stop doing every single thing for me, in order for me to figure that out for myself.
Long story short: Own your happiness. And don’t lose sight of who you are just to please those around you.
Wait..my husband doesn't read my mind?
“I wish my hubs would just plan an entire evening, take me out & I don’t even have to ask…”
You’ve said it, right?
Then, a holiday or special occasion rolls around & he hasn’t read your mind…you get all pissy that your date night (that you made up in your head but didn’t tell anyone about), didn’t happen.
You pout.
You get irritated with him.
And he has NO CLUE what he did wrong.
Or you do this…
You drop hints hoping he will get it & then, NOTHING.
No date night. Like ever. Planned.
And again, you pout.
You get irritated with him & he still has NO CLUE what he did wrong.
Hear me out…what if you:
1. STATE exactly what you would like & IF he wants, he can plan the date night. Like we tell our kids…“USE YOUR (DAMN) WORDS.” Keep in mind, you can request what you want, but he is a grown ass adult, he may not WANT to do it. And get this, that is ok…because you have a second option.
2. Just plan it yourself? I planned our date tonight. I knew what I wanted, I asked if he was in & then I set it up. Get this shit…we both had a GREAT evening.
Men are NOT mind readers. And you know what you want BETTER than anyone else.
I get it, trust me.
BEEN THERE.
We think they should know that we want candy & flowers on Valentine’s Day or that we WANT them to plan date night for our anniversary. We think that if we tell them, it is not the same or it doesn’t count. But he is not going to GUESS what you want.
And I can tell you that not once during our date night did the thought run through my mind that he didn’t care about me enough because HE didn’t take the time to plan our night out.
Do you always know what he wants? Prob not.
Think of how much less disappointment there would be if you just SAID what you wanted. Or if you just took control of the things you wanted & dropped the expectation that he has to do it all (& without being told…)!
“On my birthday, I would love….”
“For our anniversaries, it would be awesome if….”
And if you’re mad about not getting something you didn’t ask for, don’t be mad at your husband because YOU never clearly stated what you wanted.
Just bc they MAY have gotten shit right every now & then without you having to tell them EXACTLY what you want doesn’t make them mind readers - nor does it mean they don’t love you when they don’t meet the expectations you have in your brain (that you kept to yourself)…
What do you REALLY want?
Have you ever stopped & asked yourself what you REALLY want?
I’ll be honest, I’ve spent most of my life going through the motions. Doing what I thought was the right path based on the “norm”, college, career, marriage, kids.
I never stopped & REALLY asked myself what I wanted.
I had a lot of things I thought I wanted but never really looked past surface level.
I never tried to get to know who I was & what was important to me.
I was just simply letting life happen to me.
I was not making things happen for myself.
6 years ago, in Corporate America, I was exhausted.
I blamed it on the company. My role. My clients.
But it had WAY more to do with me not being in alignment with who I was & what I wanted than where I worked. I moved positions, quit the corporate life & found another job & I was still unhappy. And definitely not in the headspace to see what was really going on…
I had no idea what I wanted.
I just knew that the path I was on was not it.
But I still never stopped to sit down & dig deep to figure out what the fuck I REALLY wanted in my life. Nor did I believe in myself so thinking about what I wanted & how to get it was not even an option for me, it was outside of my reach.
When Beachbody came into my life, something inside of me shifted. I had actually started to think outside the box in terms of what was possible more than I ever had before.
I found a LOVE for the personal development work that we as coaches did on the regular.
In 2020, I started to do work with a life coach. That was it!
This is ONE of the many things on my list that I WANT in my life.
It is showing me how to take my dreams, write them out on paper, make them a possibility & know that I can handle ANY emotion that comes up as I grow into this more evolved version of myself. It has shown me that I don’t have to sit here & let life happen to me, I can CREATE the future that I want….but only IF I KNOW WHAT I WANT! Otherwise, we stay in autopilot & that is how our lives start to feel a little bit like Groundhog Day!
So here I am at 37, almost 38…FINALLY doing the work to ask myself (besides this amazing new business I am launching because that is a HUGE “want” I get to check off my list) what else do I want?!
Y’all, it doesn’t have to be a biz you start, it can relate to your current career. A better relationship with your hubs. Your kids. A trip to Fiji. To lose 50lbs & keep it off. It can be ANYTHING. The point is, what do you want?
If you keep living the way you are today do you know where will you be in 5, 10 years
Is that the path you need to be on to achieve what YOU want THE most in your life?
Not what society tells you is the right path or what you SHOULD do, what YOU Want.
And if not, what do you need to do to make shit happen for yourself?!
What are some things in life that you WANT? Get curious with yourself!
Stop "SHOULDING" All Over Yourself!
YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE A MORNING PERSON!
I know that may shock some of you to hear that out of me but…
We had an amazing convo in my group yesterday about self limiting beliefs.
One of the girls said she has a self limiting belief that she “is not a morning person.” But once we got to the root of it - she did not want to be a morning person. She loves her evening workout because it energizes her after work to get shit done around the house + it relieves some of her stress from her day BUT she was telling herself she should be…that maybe it is was better to be a morning person & she was missing something. So I told her instead of thinking “I am not a morning person” & making that mean there is something wrong with her - just own it & say “I don’t WANT to be a morning person.” See how different that sounds & feels?!
This is where we (all humans) get stuck - telling ourselves we SHOULD be doing nothing. I refer to it as “shoulding” on yourself instead of being real about what you want. It is so easy to do that, especially when we see other people doing things - gotta that social media peer pressure - & then we start arguing with our own reality because we think we aren’t doing it right! Or that we aren’t good enough because we aren’t doing it like someone else.
Well girlfriend I am here to tell you, that is bullshit. There is no one size fits all for your daily routine or schedule. You have to do what works for you!
If you want to sleep in because you find you’re more energized & productive at night - ! If you want to get up early because that is the best time for you to sneak in a workout & get some quiet time - GO YOU! If you LOVE working out on your lunch break because it gets you over that mid day - GET IT, GIRL!
I wake up in the morning because I WANT to...when I do it out of WANT - it feels ways better than telling myself I SHOULD or HAVE to.
Stop “shoulding” on yourself! Ask yourself what YOU really want & if you like your reasons behind it-own it & rock your routine!
PS - this can apply to A LOT more than just your routine/schedule.