My Future Self: Winter Edition

Last year, I noticed a pattern after winter.

During the dreaded “W” season, Aaron and I get a little more sedentary — nothing crazy — just more nights on the couch (binging our favorite shows), an extra cocktail or two midweek, and more snacking “because it’s cold and dark.”

And honestly, what the fuck else do we have to do? LOL.

It’s not a problem… until it starts to be. By late winter, I can feel it — I’m sluggish (outside of my usual self-diagnosed SAD) and a little out of sync with my natural day-to-day flow.

It’s like I slowly trade intentionality for autopilot.

But this year, I’m doing it differently, bitches!
I’m planning ahead with my Future Self in mind.
Zero judgement, I’m just getting honest about it. Awareness is key!

While past me hates the cold and boredom of winter, buffers with snacks, shows, and cocktails — which leaves her with more blah energy and less alignment with how she wants to feel. A.K.A. I buffer my winter blues and boredom away.

Future me has it figured out.

So, in an effort to not recreate “past me” - I’ve jumped ahead, pictured myself in March, pictured my Future Self — clear-headed and ready for spring — and I asked her:
What would YOU thank me for this winter for?
What routines would support YOUR energy?
How would YOU spend evenings without reaching for wine and dip?

And she always answers with the best advice…
She says things like:

“Thanks for not making cocktails a weeknight habit.”
“Thanks for choosing connection and creativity instead of buffering away your boredom and winter blues.”

When my brain says, “Eh, one more cocktail won’t hurt,” my future self says:
“Your future self enjoys a Thursday or Friday night cocktail — let’s save it for then and make it special.”

When my brain says, “It’s dark, might as well grab the dip,” she says:
“Tuesday doesn’t need to be party food night. Let’s make something cozy that still feels good. We can have a planned dip night this weekend!”

She’s not about restriction — she’s about intention.
She doesn’t deprive herself, but she also doesn’t overeat or overdrink to get through winter.

Let’s be honest —a good portion of us use food or a cocktail (or even endless scrolling) to manage our boredom or lack of activities in winter.
It’s dark, it’s cold, and sometimes the highlight of the day is what’s for dinner or what’s in the glass (or what’s online).

Side Note: This isn’t about weight loss. Once I share my tummy tuck blog post, this will make even more sense — but I’ve learned through research and personal experience that my body has a natural weight where it loves to hang out. That natural weight isn’t the version of me who’s overeating or overdrinking — she’s the version who lives her life without restriction but also without buffering.

And honestly, that’s exactly how I help my clients too. We don’t overhaul their diets or obsess over calorie deficits. We look at where they might be overeating, overdrinking, eating their feels, or stuck in diet cycles — restricting during the week, then going ham on the weekends — and instead, we work on mindful, sustainable choices that feel good long-term.

Because when you stop buffering or spinning in the “diet cycle” - you naturally land closer to your body’s happy place —your natural weight.


I’ve learned that buffering — snacking, sipping, zoning out — doesn’t actually make me feel better. It just gets me to spring like, ‘Cool, I made it… but I also feel like ass and slept like shit for 3 months.’

This year, I’m thinking of both versions of me:

  • My future self in spring who’ll thank me for not buffering.

  • And the current version of me (in winter) who wants to feel more alive and less sluggish.

Instead of reaching for a snack or another drink because there’s ‘nothing else to do,’ I’m asking: What do I really need in this moment? Or what choice can I make now that will positively impact how I show up tomorrow?

Sometimes it’s a walk, a puzzle, or tea instead of wine. She knows she can feel bored and let it be — or find things that lift her up instead of adding to the blah.

If I can set Winter Me up with that kind of love and care, I know Spring Me is going to feel so damn proud.

If you want to try this too, here are a few prompts from my own journal this week:

  • What does Future Me thank me for this winter?

  • What makes me feel cozy without overdoing it?

  • What would feel good for my mind + in my body come spring — and what supports that now?

  • How can I spend weeknights connected instead of avoiding my winter blues and boredom?

Because here’s the thing — if you’re not connected to the future version of yourself, even just a few months out, you’re way more likely to make decisions that only feel good in the moment.

You’ll reach for that instant gratification or dopamine hit — the extra drink, the snack, the scroll — but that’s exactly what gets us to the next season asking, “How the fuck did I get here?!”

So I’m not waiting for spring to feel better.
I’m becoming her now — by visualizing what winter looks like for her, and choosing, one cozy, intentional moment at a time.


PS: Coaching + Cocktails: Your Future Self

If you want to dive deeper into this kind of work, I’m hosting an online workshop — Coaching + Cocktails: Your Future Self — where I’ll walk you through this process more in depth.

It can be used for so many things — how you show up during the holiday season, how you move through winter, or even what you want the version of you in 2026 to look like.
Or the everyday stuff — like getting clear on decisions that actually align with your life, not second-guessing everything, or ditching the chase for instant results.

Either way, you’ll leave the call already stepping into this version of yourself — more clear, connected, and confident in who you are becoming.

To register, go here!

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That Awkward Space Between Who You Were and Who You’re Becoming

After every event or workshop I host, I do my own little evaluation.
What worked
What didn’t
What I’d do differently next time

That part’s helpful. That’s how I learn and grow.

But then a few days later… my brain likes to go off-script.

It starts reminding me of everything I didn’t do —
Like how I forgot to share a few examples of how I personally use the tool I taught.

(Reminder: this evaluation is supposed to help me improve, not roast myself…but my brain can be a bit of an ass sometimes.)

And then it loves to throw in a few classics:
“They probably didn’t get what they needed.”
“Who are you to be coaching a room full of women?”

And there it is — the old story trying to make a comeback.

If I listened to it, I’d never show up again.

My current (and Future) Self are living proof that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.
But my past self still loves to try to pull me back in. 🤦🏼‍♀️

That’s the weird in-between — the messy middle between who I used to be and who I’m becoming.

And that’s where those stories get the loudest.
They whisper,
“Stay small.”
“Don’t get too confident.”
“Play it safe.”

Your brain’s job is to keep you comfortable.
Familiar.
Predictable.
And when you start doing things that stretch you — things your old self wouldn’t have dared to do — your brain freaks the hell out.

Because growth feels unsafe to the part of you that just wants to be liked, accepted, and certain.

Here’s the thing: self-doubt isn’t proof you’re not capable.
It’s not even a fact.

It’s a thought loop built from old beliefs — the ones your brain created to keep you safe, not growing or trying to new things.

Self-doubt isn’t a warning sign to stop. It’s an old story trying to keep you small.

When you believe that story, you start spinning.
You replay every moment, every “mistake,” every reason you shouldn’t be where you are.

You start finding all the evidence for how that story is still true — and before you know it, you’re torn between seeking comfort in the old version of you and still wanting to step into something new.

Coaching taught me how to catch those thoughts before they run the show.

Here’s what that looks like in real life:
Notice it. Catch the thought before you automatically believe it. “Oh hey, there’s that old story again.”
Name it. Say what it is — fear, perfectionism, comparison, whatever.
Question it. Ask, “Is that actually true?” and “What else could be true?”
Redirect it. Find evidence for your new story — proof of the woman you’re becoming.

Because that’s what we all do, right?
We tell ourselves stories all day long:
“I can’t do that.”
“I’m not ready.”
“They’ll think I’m too much.”

But when you start questioning them —
When you shift your brain from fear to possibility —
You stop playing small and start creating what you actually want in life.

That’s how you spot the story.
That’s how you take your power back.

So yeah, maybe I missed a few points I wanted to touch on at my event.
But I also filled a room with women who showed up because they believe in what I do.

That’s my proof.
Proof that the new story — “I’m a coach who hosts events and changes lives” — isn’t just possible.
It’s already happening.

And that’s the work I want for every woman I coach:
To stop looking for confidence before you act…and start acting in ways that build your confidence.

Because if you keep waiting to feel ready before you believe you belong, you’ll stay stuck in that loop forever.

Your Future Self doesn’t have it all figured out — she’s just learned to stop letting old stories run the show.
She’s built enough evidence to trust that she’s allowed to take up space, even when it feels uncomfortable.

The goal isn’t to never feel self-doubt again — it’s to notice it sooner and recover faster.
That’s what “moving through it” actually looks like.
Less time spinning, more time choosing the story that serves who you’re becoming.

So next time your brain starts throwing shade, remember:
Self-doubt isn’t proof you’re not ready — it’s an old version of you trying to keep you safe.

You don’t have to get rid of it.
You just have to recognize it for what it is…
and keep moving toward the version of you who already knows —you’re exactly where you’re meant to be.

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College Visits Hit Different When Your Kid Has Food Allergies

It’s one thing to be in the season of college visits — that alone is rough.
But it’s another thing to realize your kid with severe food allergies may be going to school hours away.

The first college visit — close to home — didn’t hit me that hard.
It felt exciting, manageable, safe.

The second one — five hours away — that’s when it hit me.
ALL the fears came rushing in — especially the ones related to his food allergies and this next chapter of college life.

Because my brain goes straight to:

  • Will he remember to carry his EpiPen everywhere?

  • Will he always tell the server at a restaurant?

  • Will the dining hall take his allergies seriously?

  • Will his roommate respect his allergies?

  • And this one sounds silly, but it’s legit — when he meets a random girl at a party, will he remember he can’t just kiss anyone… because what they ate that day matters?

We’ve spent 13 years managing Mason’s tree nut + sesame allergy (since his first reaction that led to the diagnosis in 2012).

Reading and rereading labels.
Choosing “safe” vacations.
Finding local restaurants we can trust.
Packing backup snacks — just in case.
Explaining that tree nuts are not peanuts (yes… this happens).
Double-checking the planned food anytime he’s not with us.

An EpiPen always in reach.
Aaron or I always close by.

But the thought of him being that far away — where I can’t just get to him if he needs me —
it’s like losing a layer of protection… one that I can’t control.

Yeah, that’s when it all caught up to me Friday night.
I cried just speaking my fears out loud to Aaron at dinner.

When you’re a mom of a child with a severe food allergy, this isn’t just about a college decision.
It’s about letting go.

About trusting that all the years of teaching, reminding, and preparing… will carry him when we can’t.

So if you’re a mom:
Navigating college visits
Sending your kid off with allergies
Or in your feels because “five hours away” suddenly feels like five million…
I see you.

And if you’re a food allergy mom whose kid is already away at school —
share all the tips on how you sleep at night.
I have a feeling I’m gonna need them.

The Gold Star Lie: Why Doing It All Is Burning You Out

Maybe instead of giving ourselves gold stars for carrying the weight of everything, we should start asking why we think we have to in the first place.

We’ve been sold this lie that running on fumes and still showing up for everyone else is some kind of badge of honor.

The one that says if you’re the last one standing at the end of the day — kids fed, inbox cleared, to-do list checked, smile still plastered on — you’ve somehow “won.”

It’s not strength.
It’s not resilience.
It’s burnout disguised as supermom.

And I get it — I’ve done it too.

When I was in corporate, I spent more hours trying to prove my worth than actually living my life.
It felt like a proving grounds daily - be the first one in the office and the last one to leave or ALWAYS be on if a client or someone on your team emails you — it was a miserable way to try to “prove your value” in the company.

And even when I got home (or closed my office door when I worked from home), it didn’t stop.
It felt like Groundhog Day — work, pick up my kids, throw something together for dinner, try to “make memories” in our spare time and be a good mom… then collapse into bed just to wake up and do it all again.

I made ZERO time for me.
Just an endless loop of doing, proving, and pretending I was fine.

Many of us think that’s just what being a “good” mom and wife looks like.

We tell ourselves we have to.
For our kids.
For our job.
For the people who “need” us.

(Umm, hi… WE need US. 🫶🏼)

So we keep going.
We keep juggling.
We keep pretending we’re okay, even when we’re one coffee away from crying in the Target parking lot.

Here’s what I finally learned after years of running on caffeine and resentment:

Your worth isn’t tied to how much you do.
You don’t earn it by saying yes when you want to say no.
You don’t increase it by being the one who always shows up, fixes things, or smooths everything over.

You already have it — simply because you exist.
(And for the record, I’m still unlearning this too — catching those old beliefs when they sneak back in.)

When you stop trying to prove your worth, something powerful happens:
You create space to live by your values instead of everyone else’s expectations.

You stop performing and start being.
You stop managing everyone else’s emotions and start paying attention to your own.
You start remembering what it feels like to actually enjoy your life — not just survive it.

The goal isn’t to stop showing up for people.
It’s to stop showing up for everything.

You can still be a loving mom, partner, friend, and human — without doing it all.
In fact, you’ll show up better when you’re not stretched so damn thin.

You can:
💁🏼‍♀️ Say no without guilt.
💁🏼‍♀️ Rest without feeling lazy.
💁🏼‍♀️ Take care of yourself and the people you love — without losing yourself in the process.

If you’re reading this thinking, “Okay, but how do I even start?” — start small.
Ask yourself:

  • What’s one thing I’m doing out of guilt or habit that I don’t actually want to do?

  • What would change if I stopped trying to keep up with everyone else?

  • What do I actually need — not what’s expected of me, not what I should need, but what I genuinely need right now?

Then — take one thing off your plate this week.
Say no to something that doesn’t feel like a yes.
Let the laundry sit another day.
Use your kids sports practice as time for yourself (no, you don’t need to sit there).
Order the damn pizza.

You’re not failing — you’re freeing yourself.

Because the real flex isn’t proving you can handle it all.
It’s knowing when to stop pushing.
When to rest.
When to say, “Not today.”

The peace you’re craving is not in doing more. It’s in the letting go.

If this hit a little close to home, you’re not alone.
This is the exact work I do with my clients — helping women stop proving, start prioritizing what actually matters, and create lives that feel good from the inside out.
Because the goal isn’t to do more. It’s to feel more like you.

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Channeling My Future Self: Coaching + Cocktails Edition

Story time!!! With a lesson of course.

I hosted my second Coaching + Cocktails Workshop last night. The previous one was a year ago…my intention was to do them quarterly but to be 100% honest, I got in my own way (even though I’ve hosted workshops on behalf of other people in between then and now…silly brain).

The first one was a topic near and dear to my heart—your inner critic and learning tools to turn the volume down on her. This time around, the topic was Tapping into Your Future Self.

And honestly, this isn’t just something I use for workshops. I use this Future Self work in so many parts of my life—how I show up as a parent, how I take care of myself, and how I make decisions that feel good long term instead of just in the moment.

I also use this work with my clients. When they’re stuck in old stories or spinning in “I always quit” or “this is just how I am,” I help them borrow from the version of themselves who’s already figured it out.

That’s not something most of us are taught. We’re taught to look outside ourselves for answers—or we just stay right where we are because we don’t realize what’s possible.

But our Future Self does. She sees what’s on the other side. And when you practice stepping into her—even for a moment—you start making different choices right now that create those possibilities.

And the exact process I taught was what I walked myself through to get me to the other side of the event without letting my brain go into freak out mode and wanting to hide instead of host. Ha!

Because there’s a version of me who has spun in these questions before:

→ “What if no one signs up?”
→ “What if it flops?”
→ “What if I’m not ready?”

And I know where those thoughts lead—because I’ve been her. That version of me has quit before. She panicked. She checked sign-ups every hour. She let the fear and the “what ifs” mean something about her.

But this time I did something different. About two days into planning, when it started to feel “difficult” and I felt “stuck,” I had this moment of like, “Ashley… just ask your Future Self. DUH!”

Hell, I even caught myself almost changing the topic because I thought, “Seriously? You’re teaching this exact topic and you’re not even using it?!” The irony, right?

So after I laughed at myself and got over that little hump, I stepped into my Future Self before the results showed up. I made decisions she would make—from where to host it, to how she would show up that night for the women attending.

When my brain wanted to spiral on the “what ifs,” I asked how she would think instead. When I felt stuck on how to talk about it on social media so women felt the value of being in the room, I asked her.

Because here’s the thing: our Future Self sees possibility where our current self sees stuck.

And if I still felt stuck (because sometimes you do), I leaned on my coach. Because Future Me also knows when she’s in her own head and needs a nudge to get out of it.

I journaled as her. I got clear on how she would show up, how she carried herself, what she was feeling. I closed my eyes and walked myself through the night: driving there, greeting the women, laughing over apps, closing it out and feeling proud—not because it was perfect, but because I followed through.

That practice calmed me down. It gave me something solid to lean on instead of fear.

Here’s the shift:
I had to think, feel, and act like her first.
The results followed after.

My future self wasn’t worried about Coaching + Cocktails. Ok, maybe she was a little BUT she did not let that stop her - that is the difference! She already knew she’d hosted it. She knew this is how she’d connect with amazing women. She knew every event would grow her as a coach and as a human.

And the more I channeled her, the more I made different choices:

  1. I put the event out there because my future self would do it without question.

  2. When sign-ups slowed down, I didn’t ghost the event. I did what my future self would do, I kept showing up, sharing, and inviting.

  3. Old me would’ve spiraled over every empty spot. My future self trusted it was part of the process.

That’s the real power of your future self. She’s the version of you who’s already figured it out—and when you borrow her mindset, you stop recreating the past. You step into possibility and growth.

Because everything is created twice: first in your mind, then in reality.

And last night, I showed up as the Future Me I’ve been practicing. That’s what allowed me to give my best to them. Was my best perfect? F*ck no. But that’s not the point—there’s no pressure to be some flawless version of her. She’s still growing too. What mattered is that tapping into her gave me a level of confidence I never would’ve had otherwise—especially walking women through one of my favorite topics for the first time outside of 1:1 coaching.

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